[ There is some affection in the words. But he wonders how much is translated. The green lights continue to flicker but it isn't too much to pull him up into the Omnic's arms. He does feel safer. He does feel better. Not just the Harmony orb but being close to Zenyatta.
More and more ice falls off of him as he attempts to weakly wrap his arms around him. ] Sorry. [ A beat. ] No. Thank you.
[ Which isn't to say he isn't reckless, because he totally is, but you know. In a different way.
It's reassuring on so many levels, to have Genji in his arms. He's safe, here and now. Zenyatta still has no idea what had happened, or how it was even possible for Genji to be brought this close to death again... But these are thoughts for later. He just needs him well enough that they can travel back to the Inn, and Genji can rest more properly. ]
You are welcome. Let me know when you are feeling well enough to stand again. I would like to bring you back to our room.
[ For now, he is selfishly content to just hold Genji in his arms... ]
[ Very weakly, there is a soft laugh that is heard.
He feels like he's getting back to where he needs to be. More ice falling, melting. His shoulders drop a little more as he feels like they've been in the same position for ... who knows how long. Genji presses his head closer against Zenyatta. It has been a long time since he's felt that much fear about dying. His own fault -- he has been thinking of himself as invulnerable. ]
I'd like that, too. It should be just a little longer...
[ The soft laugh, as quiet as it is, still fills his processors with a burst of relief. He hasn't heard Genji speak at all since this happened, only able to hear what he's saying through his thoughts... It isn't as if he was worried the other had lost his voice, somehow, but still... It was nice to hear that laugh. ]
And I have no qualms with staying like this for as long as you need.
[ You know, the hugging. He actually rather enjoys this feeling of wrapping his arms around Genji, holding him close to his body...
For an omnic, there really is no reason for this. Humans, instinctually, have a desire to be close to others. Omnics have no such instincts, and yet... He feels a mixture of fondness and comfort like this. He hopes Genji feels the same. ]
[ It makes him feel safe. After everything that has happened, after begging for his life, he feels safe and at ease. He'll say that as many times as he can, because he finds it to be amazing in and of itself. To be in a state of panic and helplessness, Genji would have thought that the encounter would have broken him. Yet he is able to feel at ease and comforted by being with Zenyatta. ]
You ... [ It almost hurts to talk. The cold making his teeth chatter still. ] You ... saved me ... again.
[ Although he's pleased to hear the other's voice, in this circumstance, it just strengthens his worry with how violently his teeth chatter. ]
You can thank me a thousand times over later if it will make you happy, but please do not hurt yourself further with talking now.
[ He can heal injuries, provide warmth, things like that. He knows there are things he cannot fix, like if someone is missing something, or if their heart stops beating. It's even more complicated for an individual like Genji, being just machine enough to be too complicated for a human doctor, and too man enough for a machine doctor. Sometimes, Zenyatta wishes Dr. Ziegler were here, in cases like this.]
I do not want you to damage your voicebox or teeth. I am... unsure if it would be a thing I could fix.
[ It doesn't help that he feels a little useless to provide only small comforts in a place like this. Healing, yes. Affection, yes. But what Genji needs right now is a warm bed and sleep. He's going to have to get the other onto Lasso somehow... But he doesn't even know if Genji can stand right now. ]
[ But Zenyatta is right. He just ... he just wanted to say it with his own words. His eyes close for a second. The warmth is more than appreciated. The cold cut in so deep that he worried that he would never feel warm again. ]
You could fix it. [ There is a smile in the texted words, somehow. Perhaps, it is felt in the way that his tired, still ice cold arms wrap around his master more. ] I'm warming up a little. I should feel lucky that so much of me is metal.
[He exhales a huff of air- there really are things even he can't do, even with his Harmony orb. But Genji has such confidence in him, such reliance on him...
He'll deal with this another time. For now he enjoys the feeling of arms wrapped around him. His sensors pick up just how cold Genji is, but being fully omnic himself, it doesn't feel unpleasant. The only times he's recalled a drop in temperature being detrimental to him is when he stayed out too long in the mountains when he had lived in Nepal. Having as many exposed wires as he does tend to mean he's vulnerable to freezing up.
But this is different. He isn't the one who is at risk.]
[ He rests a little more comfortably against the Omnic. His thoughts return to Koltira -- the elf looked so broken when he came out of that bloodthirsty state. Genji could only offer forgiveness and apologies for being unable to stop him. Lightly shaking his head, Zenyatta said not to let his thoughts stray back to that. How he keeps repeating the same words over and over in his head -- could only say he forgave and sorry.
Flexing his fingers, he waits a few minutes more before nodding. Lifting his head up, he looks toward Zenyatta. There is a soft smile that he has and knows that it's felt. ] I believe I can be moved now. Warmed up enough to be able to, anyway. [ A strained hiss as he attempts to start to rise. ]
[Zenyatta frets, still sitting but placing his hands on Genji wherever he can to help stabilize him.]
If you cannot walk, then I will carry you. You have, after all, done the very same for me.
[Except Genji's cool ninja cyborg legs sure work a lot better than his lanky and frequently disused ones. But still. He's sure he can manage getting him to the horse, at the very least.]
[ The way the metal sounds as he stands -- it hurts. He breathes out a sigh as he continues to slowly stand. Frozen metal finally attempting to move, it leaves a lot to be desired in terms of what movement is available to him now. He recalls telling someone that he's about 20% flesh -- should he feel good about that or not? Would he be having an easier time now? ]
I have, but I have to recover quickly. Koltira still is out there. You're right that we cannot keep focusing on the past and past failures of even a few minutes. [ The lights over his body flicker before returning to their usual brightness. ] Temporary system malfunction. Still recovering from the cold. I can still at least get to Lasso.
Then... [ Then recovery. Then looking for Koltira. ]
[He never leaves Genji's side, hands on him as if that will help him stand, somehow. If he were capable of wincing, he might've done just that when he heard the sound that sounded like scrapping metal. Zenyatta was hoping he wouldn't need to get Knock Out involved here, but if this is worse than it seems... He might.
Lasso isn't very far at this point, at least. Only a few more steps, and the real challenge begins of getting ON the horse.]
Your recovery will happen at the rate you are intended to. And I will ensure you reach full recovery.
[As in, your ass isn't leaving bed until he thinks you're well enough.]
[ It makes him wince, too. The creaking sounds of his limbs as he walks with Zenyatta's help. He flinches beneath his mask but he's walking. That's better than lying on the ground. He's standing and that's better than just weakly sending text messages. ]
Somehow I feel like I'm being scolded.
[ He's at least able to joke that much. A tired sigh as he rests his hand against Lasso's side. Lightly patting the horse, he rests his head against the neck as he feels. So tired. How far even was it from where he was to stand here? He shakes his head -- the present and future, yes. ]
[ To remain in the present, he realizes how much this must frighten Zenyatta. For all he has done for him, for all he continues to do, Genji realizes he should do more in return. Because he loves him. Because no one wants to know their loved one is hurt or scared. He feels safe with the Omnic so called to him, and so he should reward the hope that he is all right.
A small joke. A small tilt of his head and ignore how the sound of the metal squeals and screams as he moves it so suddenly after becoming unfrozen. ]
You did. Then, please, help me. [ He reaches to slide into Zenyatta's arms, to help his love in helping him. ]
ITS OK IF WE DROP THIS THREAD i know i took forever
[The joke continues, but he means it. Genji isn't... in trouble, really. He's just worried. As he always will be.
As per what he intended to do, he picks up Genji. Who is... heavier than he's normally comfortable carrying, but Genji needs him, right now. Pushing a bit of extra energy into his levitation, his thrusters really, he carries Genji and gently settles him on the back of his horse.]
There...
[If he had lungs, that would have definitely knocked the wind out of him. But luckily, he doesn't, and so he's overall fine after that little struggle. It's much easier to lift just himself onto Lasso this time.]
[ It would be nice to laugh. But he is only able to give a slight head tilt to his master -- a way to show that he's amused with their joke.
There is some worry that he feels in return once he's upon the horse. He turns his head around to look toward Zenyatta but he seems to be all right. ] I should have asked the good doctor to have made me a little lighter. [ A smile beneath the words of worry as he looks him over. His shoulders drop when he realizes that he's all right and nods. ]
I really love you. [ It seems almost odd to say but he's just filled with that emotion so much that he can't help BUT say it. ]
Well, I am not one to judge someone on their weight... but do not look for me to be carrying you too frequently.
[Because okay, he knows he's not exactly light either...
And oh, that's sudden.
With Genji sitting in front of him, Lasso begins to trot ahead. Zenyatta wraps his arms around Genji waist (to hold him in place as well as embrace him), and presses his forehead to the other's neck plating.]
You mean the world to me, Genji.
[Simply saying "I love you too" right back didn't seem to convey the right kind of emotion.]
...I was so worried.
[He finally admits, now lapsing in his calm for just a moment, now that the rush to get Genji towards safety is over. There is nothing he can do to hasten them, except drive Lasso faster- but too fast would be dangerous. He would rather keep this measured (but still quick enough) speed.
Zenyatta sighs, as his hands squeeze just a little tighter around Genji's waist.]
I know that we will all join the Iris when our time on this mortal plane ends. But I would like... both of us, to avoid our permanent transcendence for some time still.
[ It's quite the statement to make with his recovery not even closer to going underway. But his heart just -- it feels right to ask something like that, too. Not to make light of everything, but rather he wants to be closer to Zenyatta, too.
And the Omnic's head against his neck plating makes his heart hurt in a comfortable way. ] I'm sorry. [ For scaring him. For making him worry. If anything, he wants to be the one to shield and protect Zenyatta as much as his master does for him. ]
I would like for us to remain together as long as possible here as well. I would be lost without you... [ Ah. He closes his eyes as the lights on his visor dims as usual. ] I am so happy that I met you. [ He's crying -- how embarrassing. It's been a bit of an emotional day, hasn't it? He can feel the hot tears run down his scarred face, sliding underneath the metal of his bottom jaw and he sniffles a little. ]
Thank you. Thank you. [ What is he thanking for? He isn't sure. But those words come out -- mind to text. ]
[He can feel Genji's quite shuddering, and although he sees no tears, nor hears the other's voice out loud, he can tell he's crying.]
Shhh...
[He quietly hushes, one of his hands shifting to rest on Genji's though and carressing the skin there in an attempt to calm him.]
I am happy I met you as well. It is times like this... that I feel that we were destined to meet, because I do not think my life would be this rich without you in it.
[Now he's getting a bit emotional himself here. It's a little hard to keep his calm when he can feel himself getting just ever so slightly overwhelmed by his thoughts, his fears... things he knows he's managed to tame before, but now bubble up again, despite he knows that Genji is okay and safe in his arms.]
... Let us not chase these thoughts any longer. We are not in the proper state to allow them to roll off our backs.
[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]
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[ There is some affection in the words. But he wonders how much is translated. The green lights continue to flicker but it isn't too much to pull him up into the Omnic's arms. He does feel safer. He does feel better. Not just the Harmony orb but being close to Zenyatta.
More and more ice falls off of him as he attempts to weakly wrap his arms around him. ] Sorry. [ A beat. ] No. Thank you.
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[ Which isn't to say he isn't reckless, because he totally is, but you know. In a different way.
It's reassuring on so many levels, to have Genji in his arms. He's safe, here and now. Zenyatta still has no idea what had happened, or how it was even possible for Genji to be brought this close to death again... But these are thoughts for later. He just needs him well enough that they can travel back to the Inn, and Genji can rest more properly. ]
You are welcome. Let me know when you are feeling well enough to stand again. I would like to bring you back to our room.
[ For now, he is selfishly content to just hold Genji in his arms... ]
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He feels like he's getting back to where he needs to be. More ice falling, melting. His shoulders drop a little more as he feels like they've been in the same position for ... who knows how long. Genji presses his head closer against Zenyatta. It has been a long time since he's felt that much fear about dying. His own fault -- he has been thinking of himself as invulnerable. ]
I'd like that, too. It should be just a little longer...
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And I have no qualms with staying like this for as long as you need.
[ You know, the hugging. He actually rather enjoys this feeling of wrapping his arms around Genji, holding him close to his body...
For an omnic, there really is no reason for this. Humans, instinctually, have a desire to be close to others. Omnics have no such instincts, and yet... He feels a mixture of fondness and comfort like this. He hopes Genji feels the same. ]
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[ It makes him feel safe. After everything that has happened, after begging for his life, he feels safe and at ease. He'll say that as many times as he can, because he finds it to be amazing in and of itself. To be in a state of panic and helplessness, Genji would have thought that the encounter would have broken him. Yet he is able to feel at ease and comforted by being with Zenyatta. ]
You ... [ It almost hurts to talk. The cold making his teeth chatter still. ] You ... saved me ... again.
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[ Although he's pleased to hear the other's voice, in this circumstance, it just strengthens his worry with how violently his teeth chatter. ]
You can thank me a thousand times over later if it will make you happy, but please do not hurt yourself further with talking now.
[ He can heal injuries, provide warmth, things like that. He knows there are things he cannot fix, like if someone is missing something, or if their heart stops beating. It's even more complicated for an individual like Genji, being just machine enough to be too complicated for a human doctor, and too man enough for a machine doctor. Sometimes, Zenyatta wishes Dr. Ziegler were here, in cases like this.]
I do not want you to damage your voicebox or teeth. I am... unsure if it would be a thing I could fix.
[ It doesn't help that he feels a little useless to provide only small comforts in a place like this. Healing, yes. Affection, yes. But what Genji needs right now is a warm bed and sleep. He's going to have to get the other onto Lasso somehow... But he doesn't even know if Genji can stand right now. ]
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[ But Zenyatta is right. He just ... he just wanted to say it with his own words. His eyes close for a second. The warmth is more than appreciated. The cold cut in so deep that he worried that he would never feel warm again. ]
You could fix it. [ There is a smile in the texted words, somehow. Perhaps, it is felt in the way that his tired, still ice cold arms wrap around his master more. ] I'm warming up a little. I should feel lucky that so much of me is metal.
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He'll deal with this another time. For now he enjoys the feeling of arms wrapped around him. His sensors pick up just how cold Genji is, but being fully omnic himself, it doesn't feel unpleasant. The only times he's recalled a drop in temperature being detrimental to him is when he stayed out too long in the mountains when he had lived in Nepal. Having as many exposed wires as he does tend to mean he's vulnerable to freezing up.
But this is different. He isn't the one who is at risk.]
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[ He rests a little more comfortably against the Omnic. His thoughts return to Koltira -- the elf looked so broken when he came out of that bloodthirsty state. Genji could only offer forgiveness and apologies for being unable to stop him. Lightly shaking his head, Zenyatta said not to let his thoughts stray back to that. How he keeps repeating the same words over and over in his head -- could only say he forgave and sorry.
Flexing his fingers, he waits a few minutes more before nodding. Lifting his head up, he looks toward Zenyatta. There is a soft smile that he has and knows that it's felt. ] I believe I can be moved now. Warmed up enough to be able to, anyway. [ A strained hiss as he attempts to start to rise. ]
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[Zenyatta frets, still sitting but placing his hands on Genji wherever he can to help stabilize him.]
If you cannot walk, then I will carry you. You have, after all, done the very same for me.
[Except Genji's cool ninja cyborg legs sure work a lot better than his lanky and frequently disused ones. But still. He's sure he can manage getting him to the horse, at the very least.]
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[ The way the metal sounds as he stands -- it hurts. He breathes out a sigh as he continues to slowly stand. Frozen metal finally attempting to move, it leaves a lot to be desired in terms of what movement is available to him now. He recalls telling someone that he's about 20% flesh -- should he feel good about that or not? Would he be having an easier time now? ]
I have, but I have to recover quickly. Koltira still is out there. You're right that we cannot keep focusing on the past and past failures of even a few minutes. [ The lights over his body flicker before returning to their usual brightness. ] Temporary system malfunction. Still recovering from the cold. I can still at least get to Lasso.
Then... [ Then recovery. Then looking for Koltira. ]
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Lasso isn't very far at this point, at least. Only a few more steps, and the real challenge begins of getting ON the horse.]
Your recovery will happen at the rate you are intended to. And I will ensure you reach full recovery.
[As in, your ass isn't leaving bed until he thinks you're well enough.]
Temporary system malfunctions included.
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Somehow I feel like I'm being scolded.
[ He's at least able to joke that much. A tired sigh as he rests his hand against Lasso's side. Lightly patting the horse, he rests his head against the neck as he feels. So tired. How far even was it from where he was to stand here? He shakes his head -- the present and future, yes. ]
Now how to get up?
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[Zenyatta admits, and once they reach the horse, he holds out his arms. Like one would do when they expect to carry someone in said arms.]
I said I would carry you. I can at least do this much to help you on the horse.
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[ To remain in the present, he realizes how much this must frighten Zenyatta. For all he has done for him, for all he continues to do, Genji realizes he should do more in return. Because he loves him. Because no one wants to know their loved one is hurt or scared. He feels safe with the Omnic so called to him, and so he should reward the hope that he is all right.
A small joke. A small tilt of his head and ignore how the sound of the metal squeals and screams as he moves it so suddenly after becoming unfrozen. ]
You did. Then, please, help me. [ He reaches to slide into Zenyatta's arms, to help his love in helping him. ]
ITS OK IF WE DROP THIS THREAD i know i took forever
[The joke continues, but he means it. Genji isn't... in trouble, really. He's just worried. As he always will be.
As per what he intended to do, he picks up Genji. Who is... heavier than he's normally comfortable carrying, but Genji needs him, right now. Pushing a bit of extra energy into his levitation, his thrusters really, he carries Genji and gently settles him on the back of his horse.]
There...
[If he had lungs, that would have definitely knocked the wind out of him. But luckily, he doesn't, and so he's overall fine after that little struggle. It's much easier to lift just himself onto Lasso this time.]
NAH NEVER LEAVE ME
There is some worry that he feels in return once he's upon the horse. He turns his head around to look toward Zenyatta but he seems to be all right. ] I should have asked the good doctor to have made me a little lighter. [ A smile beneath the words of worry as he looks him over. His shoulders drop when he realizes that he's all right and nods. ]
I really love you. [ It seems almost odd to say but he's just filled with that emotion so much that he can't help BUT say it. ]
GOOD
[Because okay, he knows he's not exactly light either...
And oh, that's sudden.
With Genji sitting in front of him, Lasso begins to trot ahead. Zenyatta wraps his arms around Genji waist (to hold him in place as well as embrace him), and presses his forehead to the other's neck plating.]
You mean the world to me, Genji.
[Simply saying "I love you too" right back didn't seem to convey the right kind of emotion.]
...I was so worried.
[He finally admits, now lapsing in his calm for just a moment, now that the rush to get Genji towards safety is over. There is nothing he can do to hasten them, except drive Lasso faster- but too fast would be dangerous. He would rather keep this measured (but still quick enough) speed.
Zenyatta sighs, as his hands squeeze just a little tighter around Genji's waist.]
I know that we will all join the Iris when our time on this mortal plane ends. But I would like... both of us, to avoid our permanent transcendence for some time still.
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[ It's quite the statement to make with his recovery not even closer to going underway. But his heart just -- it feels right to ask something like that, too. Not to make light of everything, but rather he wants to be closer to Zenyatta, too.
And the Omnic's head against his neck plating makes his heart hurt in a comfortable way. ] I'm sorry. [ For scaring him. For making him worry. If anything, he wants to be the one to shield and protect Zenyatta as much as his master does for him. ]
I would like for us to remain together as long as possible here as well. I would be lost without you... [ Ah. He closes his eyes as the lights on his visor dims as usual. ] I am so happy that I met you. [ He's crying -- how embarrassing. It's been a bit of an emotional day, hasn't it? He can feel the hot tears run down his scarred face, sliding underneath the metal of his bottom jaw and he sniffles a little. ]
Thank you. Thank you. [ What is he thanking for? He isn't sure. But those words come out -- mind to text. ]
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Shhh...
[He quietly hushes, one of his hands shifting to rest on Genji's though and carressing the skin there in an attempt to calm him.]
I am happy I met you as well. It is times like this... that I feel that we were destined to meet, because I do not think my life would be this rich without you in it.
[Now he's getting a bit emotional himself here. It's a little hard to keep his calm when he can feel himself getting just ever so slightly overwhelmed by his thoughts, his fears... things he knows he's managed to tame before, but now bubble up again, despite he knows that Genji is okay and safe in his arms.]
... Let us not chase these thoughts any longer. We are not in the proper state to allow them to roll off our backs.
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[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]