[ It's quite the statement to make with his recovery not even closer to going underway. But his heart just -- it feels right to ask something like that, too. Not to make light of everything, but rather he wants to be closer to Zenyatta, too.
And the Omnic's head against his neck plating makes his heart hurt in a comfortable way. ] I'm sorry. [ For scaring him. For making him worry. If anything, he wants to be the one to shield and protect Zenyatta as much as his master does for him. ]
I would like for us to remain together as long as possible here as well. I would be lost without you... [ Ah. He closes his eyes as the lights on his visor dims as usual. ] I am so happy that I met you. [ He's crying -- how embarrassing. It's been a bit of an emotional day, hasn't it? He can feel the hot tears run down his scarred face, sliding underneath the metal of his bottom jaw and he sniffles a little. ]
Thank you. Thank you. [ What is he thanking for? He isn't sure. But those words come out -- mind to text. ]
[He can feel Genji's quite shuddering, and although he sees no tears, nor hears the other's voice out loud, he can tell he's crying.]
Shhh...
[He quietly hushes, one of his hands shifting to rest on Genji's though and carressing the skin there in an attempt to calm him.]
I am happy I met you as well. It is times like this... that I feel that we were destined to meet, because I do not think my life would be this rich without you in it.
[Now he's getting a bit emotional himself here. It's a little hard to keep his calm when he can feel himself getting just ever so slightly overwhelmed by his thoughts, his fears... things he knows he's managed to tame before, but now bubble up again, despite he knows that Genji is okay and safe in his arms.]
... Let us not chase these thoughts any longer. We are not in the proper state to allow them to roll off our backs.
[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]
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[ It's quite the statement to make with his recovery not even closer to going underway. But his heart just -- it feels right to ask something like that, too. Not to make light of everything, but rather he wants to be closer to Zenyatta, too.
And the Omnic's head against his neck plating makes his heart hurt in a comfortable way. ] I'm sorry. [ For scaring him. For making him worry. If anything, he wants to be the one to shield and protect Zenyatta as much as his master does for him. ]
I would like for us to remain together as long as possible here as well. I would be lost without you... [ Ah. He closes his eyes as the lights on his visor dims as usual. ] I am so happy that I met you. [ He's crying -- how embarrassing. It's been a bit of an emotional day, hasn't it? He can feel the hot tears run down his scarred face, sliding underneath the metal of his bottom jaw and he sniffles a little. ]
Thank you. Thank you. [ What is he thanking for? He isn't sure. But those words come out -- mind to text. ]
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Shhh...
[He quietly hushes, one of his hands shifting to rest on Genji's though and carressing the skin there in an attempt to calm him.]
I am happy I met you as well. It is times like this... that I feel that we were destined to meet, because I do not think my life would be this rich without you in it.
[Now he's getting a bit emotional himself here. It's a little hard to keep his calm when he can feel himself getting just ever so slightly overwhelmed by his thoughts, his fears... things he knows he's managed to tame before, but now bubble up again, despite he knows that Genji is okay and safe in his arms.]
... Let us not chase these thoughts any longer. We are not in the proper state to allow them to roll off our backs.
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[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]