[ It makes him wince, too. The creaking sounds of his limbs as he walks with Zenyatta's help. He flinches beneath his mask but he's walking. That's better than lying on the ground. He's standing and that's better than just weakly sending text messages. ]
Somehow I feel like I'm being scolded.
[ He's at least able to joke that much. A tired sigh as he rests his hand against Lasso's side. Lightly patting the horse, he rests his head against the neck as he feels. So tired. How far even was it from where he was to stand here? He shakes his head -- the present and future, yes. ]
[ To remain in the present, he realizes how much this must frighten Zenyatta. For all he has done for him, for all he continues to do, Genji realizes he should do more in return. Because he loves him. Because no one wants to know their loved one is hurt or scared. He feels safe with the Omnic so called to him, and so he should reward the hope that he is all right.
A small joke. A small tilt of his head and ignore how the sound of the metal squeals and screams as he moves it so suddenly after becoming unfrozen. ]
You did. Then, please, help me. [ He reaches to slide into Zenyatta's arms, to help his love in helping him. ]
ITS OK IF WE DROP THIS THREAD i know i took forever
[The joke continues, but he means it. Genji isn't... in trouble, really. He's just worried. As he always will be.
As per what he intended to do, he picks up Genji. Who is... heavier than he's normally comfortable carrying, but Genji needs him, right now. Pushing a bit of extra energy into his levitation, his thrusters really, he carries Genji and gently settles him on the back of his horse.]
There...
[If he had lungs, that would have definitely knocked the wind out of him. But luckily, he doesn't, and so he's overall fine after that little struggle. It's much easier to lift just himself onto Lasso this time.]
[ It would be nice to laugh. But he is only able to give a slight head tilt to his master -- a way to show that he's amused with their joke.
There is some worry that he feels in return once he's upon the horse. He turns his head around to look toward Zenyatta but he seems to be all right. ] I should have asked the good doctor to have made me a little lighter. [ A smile beneath the words of worry as he looks him over. His shoulders drop when he realizes that he's all right and nods. ]
I really love you. [ It seems almost odd to say but he's just filled with that emotion so much that he can't help BUT say it. ]
Well, I am not one to judge someone on their weight... but do not look for me to be carrying you too frequently.
[Because okay, he knows he's not exactly light either...
And oh, that's sudden.
With Genji sitting in front of him, Lasso begins to trot ahead. Zenyatta wraps his arms around Genji waist (to hold him in place as well as embrace him), and presses his forehead to the other's neck plating.]
You mean the world to me, Genji.
[Simply saying "I love you too" right back didn't seem to convey the right kind of emotion.]
...I was so worried.
[He finally admits, now lapsing in his calm for just a moment, now that the rush to get Genji towards safety is over. There is nothing he can do to hasten them, except drive Lasso faster- but too fast would be dangerous. He would rather keep this measured (but still quick enough) speed.
Zenyatta sighs, as his hands squeeze just a little tighter around Genji's waist.]
I know that we will all join the Iris when our time on this mortal plane ends. But I would like... both of us, to avoid our permanent transcendence for some time still.
[ It's quite the statement to make with his recovery not even closer to going underway. But his heart just -- it feels right to ask something like that, too. Not to make light of everything, but rather he wants to be closer to Zenyatta, too.
And the Omnic's head against his neck plating makes his heart hurt in a comfortable way. ] I'm sorry. [ For scaring him. For making him worry. If anything, he wants to be the one to shield and protect Zenyatta as much as his master does for him. ]
I would like for us to remain together as long as possible here as well. I would be lost without you... [ Ah. He closes his eyes as the lights on his visor dims as usual. ] I am so happy that I met you. [ He's crying -- how embarrassing. It's been a bit of an emotional day, hasn't it? He can feel the hot tears run down his scarred face, sliding underneath the metal of his bottom jaw and he sniffles a little. ]
Thank you. Thank you. [ What is he thanking for? He isn't sure. But those words come out -- mind to text. ]
[He can feel Genji's quite shuddering, and although he sees no tears, nor hears the other's voice out loud, he can tell he's crying.]
Shhh...
[He quietly hushes, one of his hands shifting to rest on Genji's though and carressing the skin there in an attempt to calm him.]
I am happy I met you as well. It is times like this... that I feel that we were destined to meet, because I do not think my life would be this rich without you in it.
[Now he's getting a bit emotional himself here. It's a little hard to keep his calm when he can feel himself getting just ever so slightly overwhelmed by his thoughts, his fears... things he knows he's managed to tame before, but now bubble up again, despite he knows that Genji is okay and safe in his arms.]
... Let us not chase these thoughts any longer. We are not in the proper state to allow them to roll off our backs.
[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]
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Somehow I feel like I'm being scolded.
[ He's at least able to joke that much. A tired sigh as he rests his hand against Lasso's side. Lightly patting the horse, he rests his head against the neck as he feels. So tired. How far even was it from where he was to stand here? He shakes his head -- the present and future, yes. ]
Now how to get up?
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[Zenyatta admits, and once they reach the horse, he holds out his arms. Like one would do when they expect to carry someone in said arms.]
I said I would carry you. I can at least do this much to help you on the horse.
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[ To remain in the present, he realizes how much this must frighten Zenyatta. For all he has done for him, for all he continues to do, Genji realizes he should do more in return. Because he loves him. Because no one wants to know their loved one is hurt or scared. He feels safe with the Omnic so called to him, and so he should reward the hope that he is all right.
A small joke. A small tilt of his head and ignore how the sound of the metal squeals and screams as he moves it so suddenly after becoming unfrozen. ]
You did. Then, please, help me. [ He reaches to slide into Zenyatta's arms, to help his love in helping him. ]
ITS OK IF WE DROP THIS THREAD i know i took forever
[The joke continues, but he means it. Genji isn't... in trouble, really. He's just worried. As he always will be.
As per what he intended to do, he picks up Genji. Who is... heavier than he's normally comfortable carrying, but Genji needs him, right now. Pushing a bit of extra energy into his levitation, his thrusters really, he carries Genji and gently settles him on the back of his horse.]
There...
[If he had lungs, that would have definitely knocked the wind out of him. But luckily, he doesn't, and so he's overall fine after that little struggle. It's much easier to lift just himself onto Lasso this time.]
NAH NEVER LEAVE ME
There is some worry that he feels in return once he's upon the horse. He turns his head around to look toward Zenyatta but he seems to be all right. ] I should have asked the good doctor to have made me a little lighter. [ A smile beneath the words of worry as he looks him over. His shoulders drop when he realizes that he's all right and nods. ]
I really love you. [ It seems almost odd to say but he's just filled with that emotion so much that he can't help BUT say it. ]
GOOD
[Because okay, he knows he's not exactly light either...
And oh, that's sudden.
With Genji sitting in front of him, Lasso begins to trot ahead. Zenyatta wraps his arms around Genji waist (to hold him in place as well as embrace him), and presses his forehead to the other's neck plating.]
You mean the world to me, Genji.
[Simply saying "I love you too" right back didn't seem to convey the right kind of emotion.]
...I was so worried.
[He finally admits, now lapsing in his calm for just a moment, now that the rush to get Genji towards safety is over. There is nothing he can do to hasten them, except drive Lasso faster- but too fast would be dangerous. He would rather keep this measured (but still quick enough) speed.
Zenyatta sighs, as his hands squeeze just a little tighter around Genji's waist.]
I know that we will all join the Iris when our time on this mortal plane ends. But I would like... both of us, to avoid our permanent transcendence for some time still.
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[ It's quite the statement to make with his recovery not even closer to going underway. But his heart just -- it feels right to ask something like that, too. Not to make light of everything, but rather he wants to be closer to Zenyatta, too.
And the Omnic's head against his neck plating makes his heart hurt in a comfortable way. ] I'm sorry. [ For scaring him. For making him worry. If anything, he wants to be the one to shield and protect Zenyatta as much as his master does for him. ]
I would like for us to remain together as long as possible here as well. I would be lost without you... [ Ah. He closes his eyes as the lights on his visor dims as usual. ] I am so happy that I met you. [ He's crying -- how embarrassing. It's been a bit of an emotional day, hasn't it? He can feel the hot tears run down his scarred face, sliding underneath the metal of his bottom jaw and he sniffles a little. ]
Thank you. Thank you. [ What is he thanking for? He isn't sure. But those words come out -- mind to text. ]
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Shhh...
[He quietly hushes, one of his hands shifting to rest on Genji's though and carressing the skin there in an attempt to calm him.]
I am happy I met you as well. It is times like this... that I feel that we were destined to meet, because I do not think my life would be this rich without you in it.
[Now he's getting a bit emotional himself here. It's a little hard to keep his calm when he can feel himself getting just ever so slightly overwhelmed by his thoughts, his fears... things he knows he's managed to tame before, but now bubble up again, despite he knows that Genji is okay and safe in his arms.]
... Let us not chase these thoughts any longer. We are not in the proper state to allow them to roll off our backs.
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[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]