[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]
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[ He swallows and knows that he isn't strong enough to keep chasing after those thoughts. The soothing presence of Zenyatta -- knowing that he is all right, knowing that he himself will live -- is enough to calm his shuddering soul. He remembers surviving battles before. He remembers not feeling much about the fact that he did. Genji knew he would just go back into another and become known as some destructive, violent force. For the sake of good? Maybe.
Did he feel so relieved back then? No. Not really. But now he's relieved. He's happy. He need not pass on and leave so many things -- Genji shakes his head as he takes a breath in. It's okay. The past is what it is and the present is what it is. The future is -- he, with some difficulty, rests his hand over Zenyatta's. He attempts to turn it over so that he could easily hold his hand, interlace their fingers.
Yes, the future is one where he can continue to hold this hand. ]